I have a secret to tell you:
...I think I'm really cool.
I'm sorry I have to say it like that.
But if it wasn't true, why would you listen to me?
I mean, honestly...
There has to be something about me
to keep your attention all the time,
to think I have information that you want and need,
to get up in front of people everyday
and act like a "weirdo,"
and jump up and down,
and read loudly with expression
and create things you have to do
and decide what things you have to know
and judge your products/work
and whether it's good enough,
finished enough,
accurate enough,
"cool" enough
for me.
Obviously, I think I'm really cool.
Recently, though, they told me I'm wrong.
They said
I'm not actually that good.
I'm not doing a good enough job,
and that the reason you are failing and not listening
is because I actually am NOT really cool.
Apparently, I'm actually pretty...uncool...
An overpaid, lazy, unqualified, gettin'-summers-off, too burnt-out, uninspiring, lackadaisical, doesn't-understand-your-culture-or-generation kind of uncool.
So, now what?
I can't get up in front of you and act like I know what I'm doing,
because they said I don't.
And I can't get up in front of you and show you how to be an ethical, moral and educated adult,
because they said I take advantage of the system.
And I can't judge your work and products
because they said I don't understand your culture or generation.
And I certainly can't teach you to work hard for your compensation
because they said I was lazy, spoiled and spend most of my time figuring out how to get out of my responsibilities.
So, what can we do
for 58 minutes
6 times a day
180 days a year?
I'm embarrassed...
Apparently, I can't help you
(even though I once thought I could),
and I'm sorry that you once had faith in me,
that I once wrongly convinced you
that I was really cool.
I guess I got confused between
confidence and
arrogance.
I pretended to know what was best for you because
I was around you so much and
had studied and schooled so hard to help you.
I dedicated everything I had to you, so
how could I be wrong?
But, they must be right.
We asked them to lead us.
We should let them decide.
After all, I realize now,
they are the ones
who are really
truly
unequivocably
cool.
